The Well

I'm so thankful you are visiting my site.  I hope you find some encouragement from my story. If not, I hope you know whatever you're going through, someone cares and you are never alone. I don't know how or where to start, but I'll just start by saying I never knew a person could be broken.  My childhood came with the familiar feelings of pain, fear, anger, and loneliness.  But those were things I had become comfortable with. Those feelings had become a part of me.  As familiar as those were, there was a day when I couldn't shake the feelings of guilt and shame, or wanting to die. Counselor after counselor telling me it was anxiety and stress and honestly I'm sure it was. THEY were stressing me out and my hopelessness was making me anxious. I needed to figure out what was going on with me. I would often wonder if anyone REALLY listens anymore? Please, I just need someone to  tell me WHY I cry all the time? Why am I so angry? Why? Someone? Anyone?  

Someone was listening. After being full of hopelessness and uncontrollable crying, they thankfully were able to suggest a place and made arrangements for me to attend a group meeting.  As I sat there listening to each woman tell what she was going through, a sigh of relief came over me. YES! That is EXACTLY what I'm feeling. But, what I didn't know was that all these women were experiencing symptoms from an abortion. I had no idea my abortion was the root cause of my pain, anger, and shame. I never knew 10 years later I would have regret, resentment, bitterness, hate, and thoughts of suicide. Why didn't I know? Why didn't somebody tell me? Or worse yet, why WOULDN'T someone tell me?   

My abortion was 28 years ago. There is not a day that I don't think about my son. Every day women and men are wrestling with the pain of their abortion.   It is the hardest thing to heal from but there IS hope! There are answers and, most importantly, I believe there are people who genuinely care and will listen. I pray I can leave you with some encouragement to find those who will listen. I pray perhaps you will be encouraged and find strength from my pain and loss to move forward. I pray you will know you are not alone. That many have gone through what you may be and are still going through. I'm thinking of you and praying for you.  Do you thirst for a drink?  Come to The Well.  

John 4:13 -14   "Jesus answered, 'Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again,  but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.'"